I'm upset and disappointed in myself because instead of getting things
going in the right direction- I crashed and burned this week and had a
big gain. I'm feeling all sorts of everything low and I'm sorry to
disappoint. I feel at a loss for where to go from here...I feel like I'm
going to be like this forever and can't figure myself out. I know I
could do SO much better and my HEAD knows the "what" to do but my heart
just isn't in it. I feel like a house built on sand.. and the waves
comes in and it's gone....I don't know what happened to me I used to be
so much more than this..
Hey Angel,
ReplyDeleteSorry I haven't commented in a long while but I've been reading here and there. Don't be so hard on yourself. It's like the pot calling the kettle black for me but I've done the same thing you have for years! I just recently made the decision to have gastric bypass surgery and am in the process of completing all of my pre-op classes. It took a LONG time for me to come to the decision of surgery and it took a lot of prayer and research and back and forth as well. But, I'm at peace with my decision. I know that it's the right step for ME. I am definitely gonna be praying for you and believing the best for you and your journey. More than anything, I'd like for you to find peace and to not beat yourself up and be so hard on yourself. You are beautifully and wonderfully made! God knows your heart and your struggle. Turn it over to Him and then follow His lead, no matter where that takes you.
Many Blessings,
Stephanie
Hang in there Angel. I know one of my biggest hurdles is when I make one bad choice in a day. It's always like well since I screwed this up I may as well eat whatever I want for the rest of the day. Try not to beat yourself up, look at what went wrong and move on. You can do this. It's a long battle ahead this is but one bump in the road!
ReplyDeleteElle
You're doing great. The biggest step is making the commitments. I know it seems rough when you slip up once, or let excuses get the best of you. But don't let one thing make you feel hopeless for the whole week. Don't allow yourself to settle for failure, and don't let the excuses win. Even if they're valid, they won't help you lose weight.
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ReplyDeleteFebruary 11, 2009
3:35 p.m.
Angel,
You missed Monday's (2/9) update...
Please let us know how you are doing...
Love you, Christine